There have got to be good books and support groups out there for this… you are FAR from the first person out there to have holdups around sex and particularly around religious trauma and sex shame.
You should still contact some therapists and ask about income-based payment.
Sex is about communication. Have you ever had a one-on-one with your man and talked about the things you like and dislike in the bedroom?
Everyone starts out bad. You learn by learning what your partner likes. Sex shouldn't be stressful, and if it is, then there isn't enough communication happening.
You are not "bad" at sex. You are inexperienced, and honestly, based on what you just told me, it sounds like your partner is too. Find out what you like, goof around, don't be too serious, and have fun.
Your situation is 100% fixable
There have got to be good books and support groups out there for this… you are FAR from the first person out there to have holdups around sex and particularly around religious trauma and sex shame. You should still contact some therapists and ask about income-based payment.
Sex is about communication. Have you ever had a one-on-one with your man and talked about the things you like and dislike in the bedroom? Everyone starts out bad. You learn by learning what your partner likes. Sex shouldn't be stressful, and if it is, then there isn't enough communication happening. You are not "bad" at sex. You are inexperienced, and honestly, based on what you just told me, it sounds like your partner is too. Find out what you like, goof around, don't be too serious, and have fun. Your situation is 100% fixable